Saturday, February 26, 2011

Thanks a Latte!

I just did a little math session and realized that I spend around 100.00 dollars a month on lattes. That is 1,200 a year! That is slightly out of hand. I have done the math before but I was making lots more money and always just said "it's my one vice!" as if that was supposed to make it ok. Well, I just ordered a new book called "The Vice Busting Diet" and the main thing it talks about is how having a vice doesn't make it ok. It's still just a bad excuse to do something. I just finished a latte I bought today and sadly me and the latte kind of had a moment. Haha!

I have gone to a coffee shop everyday for YEARS. I mean at least since the yearly 2000's. It's been my thing. I'm the coffee shop girl. I do love reading at coffee shop's and hanging out in them...but I'm thinking maybe it's time to cut back :) I'm not delusional enough to think this is gonna be easy...I'm mean I'm writing a blog about it. Obviously I'm gonna miss my lattes but I had to tell myself people quit doing drugs, or quit smoking...I'm pretty sure I can handle quitting lattes!

It has really helped to be able to share this journey I'm on and so I figure that I should share this goal as well. If I'm going to make a lifestyle change then drinking a latte everyday was going to have to change eventually...it might as well start now. So I apologize if I become really grumpy and lame due to the lack of caffeine...but I'm sure once the initial withdrawal is gone I'll be better :)

Saturday, February 5, 2011

A Lifetime of Bad Habits

How do you break a lifetime of bad habits? Seriously if anyone can answer that question I'm all ears (and preferably I would like the answer to be something that is easy...not hard :) )
I have reached that time in my weight loss journey that I'm ready to quit. Haha...about a month in I always get frustrated cause I don't really see any results and I get mad and quit. This week I have had to talk myself of the ledge a few times...last night I wanted junk food SO bad I was ready to hurt somebody till I got some. But...I didn't get any :) This week has been a challenge though...I have been sick so of course I have talked myself out of doing anything that remotely resembles exercise and I have eaten pretty bad (food is my comfort...when I'm sad or sick I eat McDonalds...gross I know).
The other night when I was feeling really discouraged I met my new friend for dinner (of course the only friend I have made is totally in to nutrition, exercising and LOVES talking about it :) God so knows what we need!) I thought she was gonna slap me when I told her that I was ready to quit and was super frustrated! She brought up that I just started and that my lifestyle change is gonna take awhile to adjust to....keyword being lifestyle.
So I have decided to not quit :) Being open about it and talking with people about all this has been hard but super helpful. I feel such support and understanding from so many people!

Other then the lifestyle change that is going on....Oregon is still awesome. I feel like I'm starting to get comfortable here and starting to find my place. I REALLY like my job! Man I have missed being able to say that :) All the ladies I work with are super nice and I LOVE all the kiddos. I'm so blessed to apart of their little lives. My supervisor asked me to start working in the classroom some so now I'm getting to spend even more time with them :) It amazes me every week how I'm able to pay my bills...God is working it out so I'm continuing to learn to not stress and trust him! I have started looking for a new apartment cause I'm out of my small, bug infested, crap hole apartment in the end of April (can you tell how much I love it??) I haven't ever really shopped around for an apartment so it's just a new experience to tack on to this whole adventure!