This week has been an extreme roller coaster. I have been super happy, then super sad. I have never experienced such strong emotions so different at the same time. I have talked to several friends over the past few days and when I tell them I'm sad and just can't seem to shake it, they all encourage me to be excited about the adventure. And I always get back to being excited but then a few hours go by and the sadness sucks me in. I was doing better this week but then on Sunday I was sitting next to one of the most special people in my life and she looks at me and says "I'm really feeling emotional about you moving." I look over and there are just tears pouring down her face. Well of course I start crying (it's a good thing we were surrounded by people cause I probably would have full on balled). After that it just has been hard to recover! I knew people were going to miss me but seeing her actually crying just made it all seem so real for some reason.
All week I have been on this roller coaster. Then last night I hit another major dip, I started thinking about my dad being all alone. Bleh...it was bad. I had to go for a walk to try and clear my head, I tried praying that didn't really help (hey just being honest). So then I called in the big guns. I asked my best friend and best advice giver I know to talk things out with me. We texted back and forth for a while...and of course I felt better and less emotional. After talking with him I felt more excited and more like this was just part of the process God has got me for me in this season.
So after work I have been packing and I ran down stairs to get something and I look up and see "congratulations!" And I just smile. There truly is always something to celebrate. Even though I have been sad and slightly freaking out I can celebrate the fact that I have so much in my life to be thankful for! Amazing friends :) They have talked me off the ledge all week this week. I can celebrate the fact that I'm about to embark on the adventure of a life time! I have NO idea what awaits for me in Oregon but the only way I'm going to find out is if I suck it up and go! I'm thinking I'm taking that banner with me and hanging it in my apartment :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOCJAVlESEo So this song (Friends--hopefully the link works...) was such a healing song for me when I was moving to CO and leaving everyone and everything I knew. One time it came on when I was driving in the middle of the night after I had just had a good-bye dinner with a good friend, I started sobbing so hard I had to pull over to the side of the road!
ReplyDeleteGreat blog by the way :) and you and Sophie may fight over the banner--what do you think?
Kristen
Hey there Louie ... hugs are being sent your way this morning xoxo
ReplyDeletePS Cute design you picked!
Remember you can, and most likley will, move back to Colorado. This is not something sad but an opportunity. Of course you will miss your friends, but that is part of it. And this isn't about your friends, its about you and personal growth. Coming to Hood River is a big move but at the same time a fairly safe one. You already know people here in town and you have family 5 blocks away from the apt you rented. Not to mention my mother-in-law who loves you and my crazy brother-in-law who always helps to keep things interesting :) and all the people who come to visit thru the year. You need to do this for you, be it HR or somewhere else. Its time. Moving away has been one of the best things I have done. Somehow the distance has actually brought me closer to my loved ones. Mom and I now talk at least 1-2 times a week if not more. And you, moving here! We hardly spent anytime together in Colorado unless it was a holiday or event. Plus you have a neice that is all fired up to have sleepovers with Auntie Louie :)
ReplyDeleteYour dad and you are close. This won't change that, I belive it will only fortify that bond. Bedides, he will love it here too. It's change, and that is scary and exciting and emotional. But don't focus on the friends you won't see but the new ones you will make. Not on the experiences you may miss but the new ones you get to be involved in. You are lucky to have friends that love you so much. But Colorado has nothing to do with that, there are people here who love you too and more to meet. Its Oregon, not Timbuktu. Your home may always be Colorado, but that doesn't mean you can't stay a while in the Hood. So buck up little camper, this will be fun.... and if it sucks oh well, move back to CO and tell some really funny stories. At least you will have some good new ones to tell. XOXO your sis
That's a good older sister for you . . . I agree with all she said above! I'd say the same to my sister. :) Enjoy your last day!!
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