Overload of New

I'm going on three weeks now of being in Oregon. I guess you could say reality is starting to hit. Everyone said that I was going to have "what have I done?!" moments...and they were right. I don't regret moving and I am very happy here. I think it's still just all the un knowns I face. I REALLY need a job. My job at my sisters store is coming to an end and I need something else soon. I'm doing all that I know to do to find a job and I know this is just a massive practical test in trust and faith. It's funny how you can tell people to just have faith and trust that God is gonna provide your needs. But until you are really in the situation yourself you don't fully understand just how hard it can be. I'm not allowing myself to stress about it all. I know it's gonna work out and I know God has got a plan for me. :)

I had coffee with a new friend today and it was awesome. She and I have a lot of things in common and it was just so nice to sit and talk with a stranger and just get to know each other. People say to me all the time that now that I moved I can be whoever I want to be, but I just want to be ME! I feel like I have been put into a certain mold back home and now I'm somewhere that no one knows me, no one knows about my bubble, or that I don't want to have kids, or that I hate spiders. These are all things that I can share with people because I choose too...not things that have come to define me. Does that make sense?

It's amazing to me how I went from totally comfortable, predictable life to....completely un comfortable un predictable life. But I'm just enjoying the experience and the challenge of putting myself out there to meet new people. It's been a challenge so far but I'm up for it! And still excited to see what happens next.