Mommy-Ville

One of my good friends had a baby boy and after he was born she said to me “I think my mommy gene is broken.” I think my mommy gene is broken as well. When I go to visit my friends in the hospital after they have given birth my reaction isn’t “oh what a miracle! I can’t wait till it’s my turn”. My reaction is “I’m literally going to puke if I have to hear any more details of the pain, blood or placentas”. I have never wanted kids. Even my sister said to me that growing up I never wanted to pretend to be a mom, or play mommy. That actually made me feel better, because a lot of times I think something is wrong with me. 99% of my friends are mothers (or fathers) and they LOVE it! And they all say to me “when it’s your own kid it will be different”, I do believe them. But I also wonder why it’s so hard for people to believe me when I say I don’t want kids of my own? I love kids. I would love to be a teacher or own a day care. I enjoy playing with kids so much that sometimes that’s all I want to do. I think God gave me a gift of being good with kids. No one taught me what makes them laugh or how to discipline them, it just comes to me. I’ll be in the store and I kid you not 5 different little kids will wave to me. I think I have some sort of kid friendly aura. I don’t not want to be a mother because it freaks me out, ok well giving birth sounds awful, but I know I could do it. It’s just something I have no desire towards. Maybe I’m meant to be like Mother Teresa, she didn’t have any kids but her life’s work was children? Who knows! Trust me I’m not naive enough to say “I’m never having children”. Whatever God wants for me, I want and if it means having a kiddo then…bring it on!

Mommy-ville is an interesting place. I am always amazed at what moms can remember. They can remember when their child got their 4th tooth when they were only 6 months and 2 days old. And that their kid had a fever on the 2nd Tuesday in July! Seriously….I don’t get it. But I will say…being a mother is hands down the hardest job in the world. These women function with very little sleep and are responsible for every part of this little persons world…that sounds like an intense job to me! First let me just say I love my mom friends, but I fear if I don’t get out of mommy-ville soon…I may snap. I need single friends. I don’t think mom friends would want to only hang out with single people…I shall miss my friends more then anything when I move, and I will probably miss their children more then them (shh don’t tell them I said that) but it’s time for me to get out there and live my single life! As much fun as it has been being an “aunty” and getting to play with all the cute kiddos…I’m ready to experience a new season. I already know more about giving birth then any un married person should know! Let me tell you…..it doesn’t sound like a good time! I will end by saying that if the Lord wills and one day I become a mother (just typing that made me feel queasy) I don’t want to hear the “I told you so” chorus to ring!